You're A Madicine

There's a thing I wanna tell before I tell a story just like the title..
I was having heartache. It was terrible. I tried to be patient, to get happiness again, to enjoy my life without someone who WAS the reason I got blinded with. Blinded by him. Blinded by his love. I fell in love. That was wrong. I chose a wrong way. I shouldn't fall in love, because everything that falls, will get hurt. Yeah. It was definitely true. I agreed.
1 month after that terrible thing happened. There was someone who's I actually have met since I was in 8th grade. But we got lost contact since I fell in love with a wrong person. Well, actually I liked him when I was in 8th grade, but there was a thing which made me disappeared from him. It was because he dated a girl who was I really hate. Actually I didn't hate her but I just didn't like her so much. 
Let's to the point.
Suddenly, I talked to him again after that terrible thing happened. Suddenly he gave me an idea. We made a plan to made videos of songs cover. He wanted me to sing. Well, honestly my voice isn't that good like he thought but I'll do practice because it's fun.
He has made me get my spirit again. He woke me up from my adversity. I honestly hope that someday I won't fall in love with him, I just hope that I will be in love with him. I don't wanna get fall, no more. Because I know that I'll get hurt if I fall in love.
That was my thought.
We talked, talked and talked. We got closer, closer and closer. 
I loved the things he loved. I hated the things he hated. Were we match each other? I thought I had a feeling that he liked me at that time. And yeah. He did. He told me and I really couldn't believe it!
I never thought that we could have a relationship, more than friends.
Oh God. I'm in love. I just wish that we're gonna lasting till God separates us. But God, please don't ever separate me with him..
I feel so safe and sound with him. 
No matter what, I won't let something breaks us.....
I love him~ >.<
Why do I say that you're a medicine?
Because you heal my heart. You heal the pain because of fell down in love.
Thank you isn't enough for it. But my love, I think it's gonna fill my moral duty to you..

A Little Gift

Gue kenal sama orang.. Sejenis gue.. Hobby, like dislike, dan lain2..

Hahaha... Gue suka hal ini.

Sekian lama gue merantau. Kesana kemari, mencari macemnya gue. Akhirnya gue nemuin. Dan itu cuma satu. Berarti macemnya gue langka ya ? ahahaha xD

Adit.. Is he gonna be my friend? Best friend? Partner? or anything else?
He's kind, makes me smile a lot, laugh a lot, accompanies me when I feel lonely. Lonely? yaa soalnya gada yang sms gue kecuali dia -__-

Gue dan dia berencana bikin MV kita sendiri.. Covering songs yang kita suka.. Juni... Masih lama... Tapi.. We must wait.. Semoga, ga akan ada halangan apapun yang bisa membatalkan...

Sejujurnya gue takut.. Takut ada yang ngebatalin.. Gue tau orangnya siapa.. Dan dia pernah jadi a part of me..

Entah dia masih punya rasa, entah dia dendam sama gue -__-
eh jangan negative thinking deeh :D Pasti bisa kok ;)

Really? So we must wait... for a really long time -__- gasabar tau ga ? -__-
Selain bikin MV, gue juga mau wasting times sama Adit :D jalan-jalan. taking photos. Yeah.. Narcissism :D 

Gue bakal kenalin dia ke dunia gue.. Dunia Narcissism :D xD

Hey you !! over there!! wait for me ;)
You're a gift for me from GOD :)

A Part of Dreams (I)

Chapter One

Panas... Rasanya panas sekali seperti terbakar. Aku melihat diriku. Terbaring di kasur. Memejamkan mata dengan erat, berusaha untuk bergerak, namun aku tak bisa bergerak sedikit pun.Nafasku engah-engah. Berat rasanya. Aku tak dapat berkutik. Sesuatu menahanku. Aku melihat diriku yang sedang berusaha bangkit dari tidurku. Apa ini? Aku tidak bisa berbuat apa. Aku tidak bisa teriak, memohon bantuan. Astaga.. Astaga.. Astaga.. Hanya itu yang kuucapkan dalam hatiku.Aku mendekati diriku. Menyentuh tanganku."Astaga. Apa yang terjadi? Kenapa tadi aku tak bisa bergerak?" gumamku dalam hati. Keringat mengucur. Panas. Apa yang terjadi, itulah pertanyaan yang belum kutemukan jawabannya. Melawan hal itu, aku tak bisa melawan hal itu. Itupun datang sendiri, entah bagaimana dan darimana. Siapa yang bisa menolongku disaat hal itu terjadi lagi? Rasanya, saat itulah sepertinya akhir hayatku. Aku tak dapat melawan hal itu. Atau belum?

"Ki, kemari sarapan dulu" teriak nenekku. Ya, baiklah. Aku mencoba untuk bangun dari kasurku. Gemetar, tubuhku terlalu enteng. Bajuku basah. Keringat. Tubuhku dingin. Keringat dingin. Apa-apaan ini? Aku harus mencari jawabannya. Secepat mungkin. Tapi darimana?"Aku selesai. Aku mau ke kamar lagi." ujarku."Tidakkah membersihkan dirimu terlebih dahulu?" ujar ibuku."Aku sakit. Aku mau di kamar saja."Tak tahu kenapa aku berkata seperti itu, tapi memang benar, tubuhku terasa sakit. Apakah ini karena hal tadi?

"Halo?""Kiki? Apa kabarnya? Boleh ngobrol?"Saudari jauh. Dia menelfonku."Hey. Aku baik. kabarmu?" jawabku."Aku baik. Aku mau liburan ke rumahmu. Saat aku disana, ajak aku jalan-jalan ya?" katanya."Ya. Tapi aku tidak janji." jawabku."Okay lah kalau begitu. Kamu lagi........."Obrolan terputus. Ah, batrai lemah. Sengaja aku tidak mengaktifkan handphoneku lagi. Aku lelah. Aku mau beristirahat.

Aku berlari. Di sebuah hutan. Aku tak tahu dimana aku berada. Tak ada satu orang pun. Aku harus bagaimana? Aku terus berlari, berlari dan berlari. Aku pun terjatuh. Ada sepasang kaki telanjang di depan pandanganku."Aku tahu masalahmu. Datanglah kepadaku" ujarnya.Dan aku pun tak sadarkan diri.......

Karma does exist

Soooo, we broke up about 1 week ago. He played my feeling. What the...
It was soo soo pain. I swear to God. I cried every single night but I tried to always smile at school and in the front of my parents. I didn't want to make them worry about me.
I had exams at that moment. I felt so so down and my scores got down too.
I didn't study, I just slept every single day. I felt like he broke me into pieces!

Someone ever said that God makes a broken heart people's wishes come true, and actually it's right. I believe it. I just wished that he would get something which can make him learn to be patient.
I never wanted to talk to another guy, but suddenly he told me to follow his Twitter. I even deleted my twitter account about 2 years ago. But then I just checked his twitter. He talked to girls like they were so close. Jeez. I was so jealous. I swore!
Then I cried but suddenly I didn't know why, I talked to guys. My best friend and a guy who was my school mate but actually I never knew him till that time (his name is Maeil).
I felt close with Maeil. I liked him and he was being honest that he loved me even we just met about 3 to 5 days.
He said that he wanted me to be his girlfriend. I just said, "why don't we meet first? then you can ask me again if you want to"
then he agreed.
I told my ex about it and then he just asked me to get back to him. what the...
I ignored. I was just exhausted.

then I actually haven't known why. I havent had feeling to my ex anymore.
but he's tried so so hard to get back to me. but I've always ignored him.
Now,  he's got the pain which is really breaks his heart.
you know what? it's not because of me. but God just gives him the feeling that I felt because of him.
KARMA DOES EXIST! BE CAREFUL! DO NOT EVER TRY TO BREAK SOMEONE'S HEART, BECAUSE GOD WILL DO THE SAME THAT YOU DO TO THEM! :)

please follow my twitter to know more about love..
I'm not master of it, but I honestly know it so well.
my twitter : @dayrizani
thank you.. <3

China Village

I found this flower and I loved it so much :*

Thank You

Dear someone that gave me motivates for my life.
I really wanted to cry while you were saying about me. About who I am, what I look like.
Yes, you were definitely true. It's me. You've known me for 9 months, but you've known everything about myself. WOW, what are you? LOL. You're so interesting. Hehe.
I really appreciated your motivates. I want to try them. You were definitely right. I really depends on HOPE. I hope, yes I hope that. But it doesn't mean that it must to be like what I hope. That's definitely true. now, I realize about that :D
Thank you so much dear my teacher.
So now, I just have to make a right decision. I don't have to understand about the key of my problem because you made me realize about that. Aaaah, feel better today.
I want to cry with my bf holds me tight. LOL
Once again, I thank you for that :)

lol everyone thinks you're boring and ugly haha someones talking about you right now omg your friends don't even like you that much they just pretend because they don't wanna sound mean but really you bore them and are so awkward no one can even bear to talk to you and everyone thinks you're weird because you actually are haha you're gonna die alone